i kinda need to vent rn sorry.

Last Friday I was at the youth group and we also had a trans group "meeting". Right before that I talked to a friend from the university in Hamburg about the idea of having an asexual group or something like that. The queer unit had that idea because at some events there were some girls that had met via asexuality groups.

The friend also asked me if there could be some connection between trans and asexuality. But not in an offending way. He was just curious of our opinions because of course most trans people feel uncomfortable in their body and maybe don't want to have sexual contacts with people because of that. But asexuality also isn't a choice.

Anyway, that wasn't what I actually want to vent about. After that I addressed that topic in the trans group (a trans friend of mine is also ace) and the woman who kind of leads the group has no idea of asexuality. So I talked about the spectrum. There was also a person who knew very much about that topic, too. But the woman didn't understand that there is also "only" asexuality. She always said that everyone must have some sexual attraction even if it's rarely (that would be greysexual). But that is not right. I am asexual. "Only" asexual. I feel no (!) sexual attraction to people. I never have and I probably never will.

I tried every possible explanation to make her realise but she didn't and that made me kind of angry. I kinda told her (and everyone there) that I'm asexual and she still "vented" about everyone having sexual attraction.

That was probably the first time I really felt discriminated and misunderstood. Discriminated is maybe a bit too hard but I don't know how to describe it in an other way. Until then there were always people who didn't understand the trans topic rightly but they never really misunderstood me. I mean, I never really told anyone that I'm ace because there are probably people who would misunderstand me, but I was at an LGBTQ+ youth group. "+". Like LGBTQIAP... All those identities and orientations.

That is actually a place where I should feel safe. And understood. But that really made me feel like shit and that wasn't funny.

And again people kept telling me how young I look and I hate that.