boobs and surgeries.

So many people keep asking me about surgeries - well, they at least don't ask if I had THE surgery.

I actually don't mind that much when I have to explain which surgeries a trans*guy can get - I like to inform people on that topic actually - but they always are like "but you won't get a surgery, do you???"

Yeah, I know, you as a cis-person don't know how I feel as a trans*-person, but do you think I want to have those fucking boobs my entire life? No! So of course I will at least get top surgery. That's a huge part of my transition. And also of my mental transition. I know boobs are a physical part of my body, but I hate thinking about having those things on my chest. Even when I am wearing a binder I can feel them - well, of course, they are getting pressed away, but they are still there. And I really want to run around without a shirt on. And those binders are fucking hot.

I also feel as if those people think that I am not like other trans*guys. Well, of course I am not. Everyone is different and there are trans*guys that don't want to get top surgery and maybe I could be one of them. But those questions are always like people trying to tell me what I want. Or what I shouldn't do. I don't know.

It feels like they really don't understand the struggle. I mean, I even hated my boobs before I realised I was trans*. They are soo fucking annoying. Like, you can't do sports or even run down the stair without them jumping up and down on your chest. That's not fucking comfortable. And my boobs are not even big.

(I hope I can get little cuts...)